Friday, October 23, 2009

A weight has lifted

Did you know how much a tiny little piece of plastic can weigh a person down? I feel lighter. I'm looking forward to bigger and better things. How much will life change now? I'm relieved, I think my kids are relieved. There is a bit more peace about us all. I, of course, sometimes have the sense of dread that something "worse" is going to happen now. It is insane. I do not linger on that thought. I push it aside and truly enjoy what a blessing it is to be right where we are. How blessed I am.

Thursday, October 15, 2009


Hey there blog world, if you don't know already, check out Lillian's webpage....BIG NEWS over there!!!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Laundry Fairy? Cooking Fairy? Tooth fairy-can I get a loan?

Seriously, I am so tired. My house is a D-saster and I'm too tired to even care. It's all I have been able to do to cook for all the rest of us household members....I'm sure I will run out of underwear something's gotta give. I have been going days without bathing bc of my sweet little daughters' illness, and I'm sorry, sleep trumps showers when you are going to bed in the morning hours.

The other girlies in the house have been passing around sniffles and coughs and all sorts of good things and I'm just crossing my fingers that something new does not invade my wee little daughter's body. I hate for any of them to be sick.

Have I ever mentioned that I have two daughters that have PMS now? I'm not sure either of them will make it to 18. I've got one that cries over nothing and one that is so hateful you'd rather she did not speak at all. lordluvaduck, only three more to go. These are the days that I miss all those "little" girls I used to have.

Since we've moved out here to the farm, we are planning a little barn party at the end of the month, Lord willin' and the creek don't rise...I'm excited. I LOVE to entertain and I just don't get to do it all that much any more.

In other news, ever since the little tornado that tried to take us out...(lol) two of the girls totally lose it when it rains. Hysteria sets in. And Lord help us if He sends thunder and lightning.

Our landlord apparently had not paid our electric bill in several months since the REMC man showed up to take the meter a couple days ago. Did I mention we can' t live without the electricity. Hello, my child's life depends on electricity. Apparently, her second car and tractor took precedence. Good to know. I'd hate for her to only have one drivable vehicle. I guess we can live without groceries too.

Sorry, I know this has not been a very positive update, did I mention I'm tired?

Monday, October 5, 2009

A little visit

It is no secret that we have not been able to regularly attend church since Lillian was born. We try very valliantly to get our kids there with the help of some wonderful folks (not the actual church we belong to that is) I miss it terribly, but know I can still commune with my Father and that in time we will be able to resume attending when life is a little different for us and Lillian. It does not change the fact that it breaks my heart that people/friends from church just assume we go somewhere else or just stopped coming. I don't think anyone truly understands the depths of the life we are living right now, ecspecially folks who are not around. It amazes me that even though there are constant prayer requests for our girl or our family noone gets it. It hurts. I understand that people have lives and are busy but isn't that part of belonging to a church---to be there and care for each other. I popped into church the other day to drop off a DVD and the choir was having their normal practice. Once they saw me the implored me to stay and sing with them and it was wonderful. I had intended to be there this morning to sing and be in the service, but that was before I was staying up all night doing treatments. It just weighs my heart down sometimes. Heavy.