Monday, June 7, 2010

Another day.

School is out huraah huraahh! We are having a great summer so far. Trying to get a pool filled and making plans for play dates and all such good things. BUT- today is a hard day. Today, I once again had to leave the kids with Grandpa so we can prepare for our overnight stay at the hospital, again. I realize how fortunate we are, I really do. These particular days, however, are so hard emotionally on my "normal" children. They are scared and worried and want to be home. I know it is difficult for them to process. The littler ones anyway. I know this. I don't know, though, why it hurts me so much. It seems like I should be accustomed to it by now. But still my heart aches as they call me crying wanting to come home and just go to a babysitter. It makes me doubtful and it basically just breaks my heart. I wish it would get easier.

Wonder how many times that thought crossed Jesus' mind? I wonder.

Tomorrow will hopefully be the final chapter of the tracheostomy, but if it's not, then oh well, on we trod.

There will be more days like these ahead, this I know.

2 comments:

Treasures from a Shoebox said...

I'm sorry this is so tough on you and your family. I remember when my baby brother was 6 weeks old he was hospitalized and Mom had to send us to stay with various relatives. Us three older children were separated from each other. I remember how hard it was. He was in the hospital for a month! But as I dusted my aunt's house each day, she had this planter with the Lord's prayer on it and though I didn't realize it was Scripture, I thought if I memorized it, my baby brother would be okay. I was 9 years old at the time. When I had memorized it, he came home! I just want to encourage you to help your children learn to lean on the Lord. This could be one of His purposes for allowing these temporary separations. Hope all goes well at the hospital my friend :)

The VW's said...

I hope and pray the day goes well! Having to be separated from your other children and going to the hospital is NO FUN! Love, Hugs and Prayers!!!