Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Having one of those weeks?

I am. I have been very raw the last week. Short on patience and very tearful. Can't really put my finger on anything in particular, just low. I'm not hormonal, not pregnant and all I can think of is the devil. Really, I'm just so blah. I feel guilty for how unsettled I feel and my reactions are not really all that good by night time.

There has been a lot of animal death here on the farm which does not help the mood. I had an out loud chat with God and Satan today.

I am again reminded of how weak a person I really am and how God is the only reason I keep on keeping on.

I am certain Lillian's condition roller coaster is the driving force, but it is not at the forefront of my mind most of the time. I pray and pep talk myself each night. I'm just funk-i-fied I guess. A funk, for sure.

Going to spend the afternoon at a friends house on the lake, the girls will swim and Lil' and I will watch. fun in the sun and then it is off to VBS.

PS- Is it July already?? How is that possible?

4 comments:

The VW's said...

I'm sorry you are in such a funk! Weeks like these are miserable! I kind of know, because I've been having quite a few of them! No reason here.....just normal life.....but "normal" life hasn't been a part of my world for the last 3 1/2 years, so I chalk it up to that!

I forgot that Satan might be the culprit though! I'm going to have to have a talk with him too!

You have lots on your plate being a Momma to 5 and with things up in the air with Lil.....you are bound to have weeks like this. Hang in there! I keep telling myself it has to get better.....because it always does!

On second thought....I plan on talking to God....He will listen better than Satan!

Thinking of you! Love, Hugs and Prayers!!!

Treasures from a Shoebox said...

When circumstances or thoughts cause me to feel this way, I say aloud, "Thank you Satan for reminding me to pray about that!" Then I immediately talk to the Lord. It doesn't take long for Satan to flee (he really doesn't want to CAUSE us to turn toward Jesus!). Hugs to you, my friend :)

Alicia said...

Praying for you, friend. Much love coming to you from here.

Vickie said...

Oh Michelle, sorry you were in a funk. It has been a couple of days so I hope you are feeling more upbeat.

You are doing a lot for your family and every now and then the funkys are gonna come out. I only have three kids and I am not as busy as you but there are sometimes I just want to stay in bed and cry.

As The VW's has said, I forgot about Satan too.

Thinking of you:)