Monday, May 18, 2009

In Memory

Sunday morning I woke to the news that my Grandmother died, unexpectedly, in her sleep. My grandpa, her husband passed away not quite a year ago.We all were anticipating his death due to his ongoing illness, it was a blessing when he was no longer in pain. Grandma, on the other hand, although she had health issues, had not been suffering and bedridden. I'm hurting. I'm hurting because I loved her. She was a prayer warrior. She loved her family and she had a contagious laugh. I'm hurting because my Dad has lost both his parents in less than a year and he is the one who has to hold it together because everyone else is falling apart. I'm hurting because my Dad has noone to find comfort in when he goes home at night and is alone with his thoughts. I can't be here for him because my child is having surgery that must be done. Now my tears are blurring so much that I can't see to type. I have peace because I know she is with the Lord, but the grief of our earthly loss still remains. I'll miss you Grandma. I won't forget the way you laughed or how you always asked me to keep my babies when they were born. I'll smile when I remember how you went through every person's name in the family before you got to mine. I won't forget how you pretended to understand what we were saying even when you didn't. (she had lost her hearing and read lips) I'm glad you are with Jesus, a man you met late in life and loved with all your heart. I'm glad you are back with Grandpa and the sisters who went before you. I loved you and I'll miss you.

6 comments:

Vickie said...

Oh Michelle! I am so sorry! My heart goes out to you and your family. She sounds like a great lady:)

{{Hugs}}

Alicia said...

Sorry to hear about your Grandmother. It sounds like you have some great memories with her.

(((Hugs)))

The VW's said...

HUGS and PRAYERS!!! I'm sorry that you are going through so many emotional issues right now! Hang in there and know that I'll be praying and thinking of you!

John Deere Mom said...

Oh, Michelle. I am so sorry to hear about your grandma. I'll be thinking about you this week.

Finding Normal said...

(((HUGS)))

Jessica mommy to Alex/ RTS said...

Im so sorry, losing a grandparent is sooo hard.
Thinking of you, hoping the surgery went well, and you are all ok.