Thursday, November 13, 2008
I spent a portion of the evening speaking with a friend, someone who knows what life is like for me....I kept saying, don't feel that way....I'm such a hypocrite...I have the same feelings. I'm overwhelmed, feel like I can't do enough, worry what others think (obsessively). Truth is, I should just spend time thinking I do as much as I can (I think). Noone is an island. We are not meant to do it alone, although at times it seems we do. Why do we do this to ourselves? Nature? Am I surviving? I think that'a all I'm doing, surviving. In just "surviving" I feel like I'm failing, when it truth, I'm just doing the best I can right now. We are our own worst enemies. It's uncomfortable to be in the unknown all the time...to feel like I don't know what I'm doing or if what I'm doing is enough. Is there an end in sight...no, will there be more days like these, yes. Can I do a thing about it, no...just survive.
Posted by Michelle at 8:28 PM